One decision can change your path

I feel outside of the sisters at times...

With my new decisions, becoming someone different than I thought I would be.

Moving in with Bobby is such a huge step--I never thought I'd get this far with anyone...especially with my first relationship, but it feels right.

I live in Texas, on my own, away from everyone else. I still live with my Dad--who i avoid at all cost. Trying to relate to him is a challenge, and every day I spend living with him gets worse and worse. Its not terrible, i suppose i'm still slightly rebellious because i don't care about him, but still--i really want to move out. February 16th can't come any quicker. Soon, i'm going to feel really alienated once I tell Dad about who I'm moving in with. Not that i care if he never talks to me again, in fact, that would be excellent. At the same time though, not really having any family around sucks.

But, I do have Bobby and his family. :)

I really miss everyone. I miss the most random wierd things that we always talked about and did together. I feel like i'm becoming less of a person without those witty remarks from char, tiffany's awesome obsessions that i truly envy, nikki's crazy awesome ambitions etc.

I keep relating back to my past, and missing it more and more.

I've distanced myself from all of my friends. I don't have good friends at work anymore, I rarely ever talk to my old school friends. I dont' know what to do with myself. Am i just becoming this huge loner, who relies on her boyfriend for every bit of social insight? I need a friend again. It scares me if in some other freak world, bobby and i weren't together anymore. what would i do?? Who would i go to? Where would my life go?

I'm just really scared of more changes i guess....