a new refreshing lifestyle :)

Life feels completely different. Its crazy that in a day, your life can be completely altered.

Bobby and I moved everything in on Saturday and we are still unpacking. :P

Last night Bobby and I bought a black entertainment center from Ikea that we spent a few hours building. :P haha we got several pieces wrong and had to fix it--swedes don't know how to write directions clearly. but.. its up and very pretty :D

score.

Sunday Bobby, me, his dad, and Lynne all went to this gun show in Fort Worth. it was so funny seeing Bobby go all nuts over these guns. hahaha. They had EXCELLENT beef jerky though that we bought. :D

On Monday, Bobbys mom was so sweet and bought us 200 dollars worth in groceries. we owe her big time!! :P

Today some maitenance guys came over to fix a couple of damages that were there before we moved in and i just finished bobby's algebra homework so that i can teach it to him more clearly. yay! (He's been at school all day)

And hopefully tonight we will be able to go see a movie!

I really like this apartment and i'm EXTREMELY happy to be with bobby :)

Packing

So, i've packed up roughly...10 boxes of my stuff and drove it over to Bobby's. I've got about 4-5 more boxes that are almost filled and then my suitcases. :) woot!

I'm so excited!!! :) :) :) :) :)

I've been wanting this for awhile now and its FINALLY happening :D

I think i've decided I'm just going to leave a note for Dad about my move in situation and he can call me if he wants. But, i honestly don't know how else to tell him. ugg. i don't want to think about that right now >_<

I've been helping out Bobby with his algebra homework for the past two weeks, and its sooo difficult having to figure out the information from the textbook, and then apply it to more difficult problems for his homework, and then explaining it to Bobby on parts he's having problems with. I've helped him learn how to solve Radical Equations tonight, but my head is killing me. I always get headaches from it b/c it takes about 4 hours to get one night's worth of his homework done...if we can even finish it within the time limit. @_@. Don't get me wrong, i like working on algebra...but not when the textbook gives simple examples and it takes me 20 minutes to figure out a problem.

I guess it's making me think though, which I appreciate, and i'm really glad that i can help Bobby out. He does so much for me and now i feel like i'm giving some of that back to him :) :)

yay. Life is wonderful :D

Firefighters

So, i got to call 911 for the first time! wonderful. it was great.

We had just closed the building. A crew lead knocked on the door frantically to the office and told me there was a fire in the concession stand. I ran back there and there was heavy smoke coming out of the multiplex syrup tower. It was nuts. The first thing I did was call 911. Then Taylor and I turned off all the electrical breakers to the concession stand and I took the fire extinguisher and attempted at putting out the smoke. Rob got my GM on the phone for me and I told him of the situation. The firefighters showed up within minutes and finished the job. It turned out that the motor in the tower blew up basically and the entire system was melted. It was burning the plastic on some of the tubing too. They stayed until they knew that everything was ok and safe. Afterwards, Rob and I spent an hour trying to figure out the breaker system and turn on the concession registers again and the freezers and refridgerators without turning on the syrup towers. It was kinda scary. I'm still coughing like nuts from the smoke. >_<

incident reports here i come!

Confrontation

So, I've got to confront Dad about moving out. I just don't know how to do it, or when to do it.

Should i invite him to dinner and thank him for letting me live with him for almost a year and then break him the news then?

Should I tell him at home as I'm leaving?

Should Bobby be with me when I tell him?

I just don't know what would be the best way to tell him. There is no best way though...

If Bobby's with me he will probably yell at him and possibly try to hurt him. But, if he's not with me, Dad might try to hurt me, of course he will yell too, he'll probably accuse me of pregnancy, and he'll break down crying. He'll probably think Bobby's a coward for not being with me when i tell him.

I know my telling him of my new future will hurt him terribly. But, he doesn't know me at all. I'm not who I am around him. It's driving me nuts!

I'm afraid he might stalk me to figure out what apartment building i'm in and keep bothering me about all of this. Or make threats.

He's might tell me i'm a whore and that i'm going to hell for this. But i honestly don't give a damn what he thinks of me. He's an idiot who doesn't understand anything about life. >_<

I just don't know what to do!! I could be moving out on Saturday. (If not, Monday). What am I going to do? I don't have a good plan about all of this. >_<

I still would like to be friends with Dad and actually be honest about everything in my life, but...he will never understand and he will start badgering me about how terrible it is that I've been gambling, that i've been having sex, that i'm moving in with Bobby, that i've drunken alcohol before.

Why can't he just be mature and understand that this is how my life is???!

I'm afriad of what he might do....

originality

I love my sisters to death!

they are so vibrant and unique!!

i'm slightly jealous of them.

I want to be more in depth with literature, music, art, science etc.

I feel like I'm copying them sometimes in their interests.

Is that a bad thing?



On another note, I'm trying to figure out what i'm going to do for Bobby on Valentine's Day. Unfortunately, due to my carelessness, we are going to have conflicting work times that day. :( But, I'm going to find some time during Valentine's Day to do something nice for him. I'm thinking of writing a poem for him, but--i'm not that great at writing...this could be a several day procedure... :P

spur of the moment surprises

uggggh.

Dad threw another one at me. "lets go to Utah next week for charmie's birthday party that i'm throwing for her"

god damn it. every single time he wants me to go up with him to Utah, it's always too late and spur of the moment. I'm not able to get the work time off and had plans made for the sixth with one of my friend's birthday party at the lizard lounge.

I'm REALLY sorry Charmie and Tiffy that i won't be able to see you guys :( but, i love you both and miss you freaking tons!!!