Radiology

....Do I want to be a radiologist???....

I just researched and found out about all the schooling and internships and fellowships I'd have to take. I'd have to make a 3.7 gpa or higher while getting my bachelors and I'd have to take the MCAT (medical college admissions test) to get into a 4 yr medical program. and then do a 2 yr internship and then a 2 yr fellowship...yikes...

That's alot of schooling, which I dont mind...but how would i pay for the schooling? and would i be paid during internships/fellowships?????? I don't know...

Anyhow, I've spent the last 3 hours job hunting...haven't applied for 1 job yet...but, I need a day time job that works during the weekend days as well that pays at least 11.75/hour and is either a clerical or administrative assistant job. I don't want to be one at a medical office because I would have to take a 2 yr program to even qualify, and I don't have the time or money for that. I need a job that can get me the hell away from amc. BLAH! ....maybe I do want to work at public storage like bob? ...but that'd be a $3 pay cut... I don't know if I want to do that.... I don't know what I want to do...but I want to have a desk job doing something that pays at least what i'm making now....

....I'm supposed to be getting a raise at my current job w/ amc...I don't know how much of an increase it is...but I really don't care how much it is because I want to leave...SOOOO BADLY!

I need a new job that doesn't have to deal with people so much.

Any suggestions?

Puppies

Can I have them?

Life Aquatic

I have such a random craving to watch the Life Aquatic with all my sisters. I love that movie to pieces.... Seriously--no one understands its hilarity more than my sisters. I don't know what it is, but whenever I see a movie with my sisters--every movie is freaking hilarious and quoteable. :)))) I miss you all! I hope to see you all sometime this year. :D

I am loving the weather in texas right now...its been cloudy for the past week or so and its been so nice and cool--even a bit chilly. ;) there was one day where the sun broke thru the clouds this week and it got so EFFING hot!!! ...it was gross. I hate the heat here....when oh when can I pack my bags and move up north???? ....years....years....years.......... ...................but---IT WILL HAPPEN! That i know for certain. I have to live in the northwest, I feel like its calling me everyday. Everytime I feel cool and cloudy weather, I pretend I'm there and that there are forests, trees, and mountains all around me with a beautiful grey sky that calms and soothes my worries away. I could literally live in the woods for the rest of my life. It is the most beautiful place to be. ...Whenever I think of the twilight books/movies, I feel that I'm up in Washington.... and then I get homesick for my family...

Texas can be a great place--I love spending time with Bobby's family, I feel like I'm getting really close with everyone--finally! It really does feel like a second family now....I've got quite a few brothers :P. His family is loud, rambunkcious, and sometimes...a bit foolish--but they've all got such great hearts and are hilarious. They all just want to have fun in life. and i love that. :) I do love the south in a different way--the sunsets here are magnificent. The warmth makes me want to go outside, I love the deserts, I love the pretty lakes, I love the cities, the theme parks, the memories from my childhood. Sometimes I think that I could live here for awhile, but other times I feel that I'm going insane for staying here. Bobby's all I've got that's keeping me here. For now, I'll stay. He is so incredibly close with his family--they've never lived away from eachother. They've always lived in Texas. When I tell him that I miss the north, he suggests moving to Colorado--since its inbetween washington and texas...but--although colorado is gorgeous....its nothing compared to washington....AT ALL! And there's no relatives that live in colorado....so what's the point? I know Bobby doesn't want to leave his family...it's going to be hard on him, but we'd probably fly down a few times a year to see them...but I know from experience that even that isn't enough to curb the loneliness.... I don't know what will happen in the future, but--I know it's going to be great with Bobby in my life :)

Happiness

Its so easy to be downtrodden and in a rotten mood. And I for one am so sick of being that way: at work, at home, at school. BLAH. just screw it. it takes such a toll on my emotions and physical appearance.... so screw it. I'm going to be optimistic this summer. I'm going to live life the fullest that I can and enjoy everything for what it is!! Yes maam you heard me. :)

I'm so sick of people getting pissed off at work. What the hell is the point?! The problem is going to be fixed anyway so shut up with your fucking complaining and do something productive!!! We are here to make our business the best it can be. We have to work with other people that we hate. It sucks, but try to fucking get along with them and see their side of how they view things and maybe you can understand them better. Just get along with everyone and YOU WILL BE FINE!! Ugggh! ....>_>.....<_< .....^_^ Lets get HAPPY! (thanks charmie for that song in your blog---PERFECT for me right now!!) Seriously though, work has such a toxic negative atmosphere....I'm so tired of it. It makes me feel negative and pissed off all the time. JUST HAVE FUN and screw other people that piss you off...because they aren't even worth getting pissed off over.

I've been so tired lately....its all because of this move and school coming to its crescendo.... Work is longgg hours too.... I haven't had time to sleep for 8 hrs in probably 3 weeks. -_-....ugh tired...BUT I wanna really make this new apartment amazing. :) So I got up early this morning to keep unpacking all our crap. :)