Happiness

Its so easy to be downtrodden and in a rotten mood. And I for one am so sick of being that way: at work, at home, at school. BLAH. just screw it. it takes such a toll on my emotions and physical appearance.... so screw it. I'm going to be optimistic this summer. I'm going to live life the fullest that I can and enjoy everything for what it is!! Yes maam you heard me. :)

I'm so sick of people getting pissed off at work. What the hell is the point?! The problem is going to be fixed anyway so shut up with your fucking complaining and do something productive!!! We are here to make our business the best it can be. We have to work with other people that we hate. It sucks, but try to fucking get along with them and see their side of how they view things and maybe you can understand them better. Just get along with everyone and YOU WILL BE FINE!! Ugggh! ....>_>.....<_< .....^_^ Lets get HAPPY! (thanks charmie for that song in your blog---PERFECT for me right now!!) Seriously though, work has such a toxic negative atmosphere....I'm so tired of it. It makes me feel negative and pissed off all the time. JUST HAVE FUN and screw other people that piss you off...because they aren't even worth getting pissed off over.

I've been so tired lately....its all because of this move and school coming to its crescendo.... Work is longgg hours too.... I haven't had time to sleep for 8 hrs in probably 3 weeks. -_-....ugh tired...BUT I wanna really make this new apartment amazing. :) So I got up early this morning to keep unpacking all our crap. :)

NEW PLACE :D

Sooo...I'M SOOO EXCITED! Bobby and I decided yesterday that we wanted to move up into a larger apartment. So, we were able to get the exact floor plan layout that we wanted.

It's on the 3rd (top) floor with vaulted ceilings, fans that have LIGHTS on them :D, a larger balcony, and ...an ACTUAL DINING AREA! Its a 2 bedroom, 2 bath. 986 sq. ft. And its in the back of the complex so there's more privacy :D. YES!!!!! Oh my goodness...oh--did I mention it comes with a FIREPLACE :D woooooooot!!!!!

So, we move in TOMORROW too!! I've got to spend all of today packing EVERYTHING up and bobby and I are signing the lease today. SCORE! :D This is so great!

The two downfalls...rent is more expensive. vs. the $648 rent we had, its not $761. So to split its about $60 more for rent when its split between the two of us, but hey--I don't mind. This is going to be so great. :) :) its a 15 month lease, so we should have this place for awhile. :D The other downfall is that there is no washer or dryer...:/ so we will be using his mom's place for washing clothes until we can afford a new washer and dryer. (that might just be on our wedding registry.....) But, we will figure it out somehow--we always do :)

I'll make sure to take pictures of the place before, during, and after the move :D YAY!!!

Here's a pic of the floorplan:

Watchmen

Just finished another novel :)

Watchmen is a graphic novel that I had been enticed to read since the movie came out. So many people from work were reading this novel and saying how epic it was, so I had to try it out for myself. It was pretty good. To be honest--I got a little lost in the plot line. Too many character names to memorize in a short novel. @_@ But...it has such a crazy message at the end of how screwed up our world is and how millions can die by the hand of one person in one mili-second. holy crap....it is ridiculous. If you are looking for a fun read, read this one. It's pretty good. :)

"Fix-er-upper" House Project :D

So, Bobby and I have spent a couple hundred dollars helping renovate his mom's house yesterday. I know, that sounds a little foolish to spend money like that, but we bought her a shovel, a wooden board that we drilled on the bottom of her fence so her dog won't keep digging up the dirt to get out, and we bought her a beautiful looking address plaque that we just drilled up above the door of her house last night. :) :) It looks beautiful.
Today, Bobby went to Walmart and bought paint that we all decided on with his mom and he's over there right now painting the house :) I would be over there too right now, but I have work at 3pm and I had BCIS quizzes I had to get done for school tomorrow. But, hopefully there will still be some paint work that needs to be completed tomorrow so after school I can go over there and help finish painting. :) We also mowed her lawn, edged the grass, and swept up the grass from the sidewalk. HER HOUSE LOOKS SOOO MUCH BETTER ALREADY :) :)

Once we get the exterior completed, we will be working on the interior and renovating it from a 60's style home into a new modern, comfy home :) :) :) :) :) I LOVE DOING THIS STUFF!! ITS SOOOOO MUCH FUN!!

Bobby and I can't wait till we can afford our own home :) :) It's going to be soo great :) I'll take some pictures of the new renovations and post them, I should probably also take some pictures of "before" and "after" :D This is so great!!

A Day.

I had yesterday off. Oh my gosh. It was great--besides all the exams. :P This week I'd been cramming and catching up on schoolwork that I've had absolutely no free time and lacking in sleepy hours. So, yesterday was quite a relief. :]

I have to go back to work today. It's lame. :( But...I'm just counting down the days till tuesday and i'll have TWO FULL DAYS OFF IN A ROW! *le gasp* One of those days includes the muse concert ;)

So...I've been saving up $$ and Tiffany--we need to sit down and figure out exactly what dates you'd be available to come down for a short vacation. :) Don't worry, Dad won't find out :] (I hope...) So hurry up and call me. I've got all sorts of things lined up that we can do.

For one day we can go to Turner Falls in Oklahoma and walk around. They have some pretty castle ruins from early 1900's. Then theres' the Arbuckle Zoo where you drive around and feed giraffe's and stuff. Pretty cool. (haven't done that one yet) And then that night we can go to Winstar for awhile and try our luck on the penny slots. :D (if you want to of course)

Another day we can go to Fair Park and see the DMA (i'll have to check what exhibits are going on) and then we can go out to dinner somewhere :)

Maybe another day we could drive out to Quana (Bobby's Family Farm) and check it out. (I'd never been there before) Its about a 3 hour drive northwest of here. Smackdab between here and Amarillo.

Maybe we could go to the gun range and you can take your first shot with a gun at a target! It's fun to shoot them :) ...9mm can be pretty loud though...

We could take a day and go out shopping at the mall, could show you my theatre too. Their mall at Stonebriar is awesome.

I'll see if I can take 3 days off and the rest of the time you're here we can just chat, you can play my game systems, watch some great movies, or whatever you'd like to do :) We have an airmattress you can sleep on in the living room.

These are just some things I'd thought up...let me know what you think :)

Listen to Alice in Wonderland

Owl City=Happiness :D

SO...Owl City is my happy music.

You must take an ear to this music, it's so sickeningly happy, it has to make you happy :)

Charmie--take a listen to the one called "Dental Care" (it talks about how evil dentists are..I'm sorry your teeth are screaming at you :( )

I feel so confident about my body. I don't know why, but I feel like I could wear a bikini this summer (if i lost about 5-10 pounds) :) Bobby makes me feel so good about myself. Seriously Tiffany--when you come down in May he will make you see yourself in a completely new way :)

We went shopping today for some skater shoes (we'd been needing them desperately) and I couldn't find any at the first store, and I already felt like giving up and I felt shitty. But he's like "lets go to just one more store to try to find you a great pair that will look fantastic on you" and so I reluctantly went into journeys. I found a pair that I thought was kind of cute, but I thought didn't look that great with jeans. Bobby told me to stand up and walk around in them. He took one look at me and smiled such a big smile and said they were perfect and didn't look weird or anything! I started to feel a little better and got them.

On the way home, Bobby was telling me that I've got to scrape up my selfconscious mind and throw it in the trash. DONT BE AFRAID of what other people think of you, its what you think about yourself. Don't be afraid to try different types of your personality in the way your clothes are styled. It's all a part of you, just because you might dress up as a punk one day, or dress up all girly with playboy bunny earrings, or dress up proper the next, or comfort clothes another, or even weird celtic clothing another... ITS ALL A PART OF YOU! WHO CARES! BE YOURSELF AND LOVE IT! :) :) :) :) :) :)

I love him so much, without him and his insight on life, I would still feel shitty about myself.

SO--ENJOY LIFE, BE HAPPY, AND LIVE IT TO THE FULLEST!!