College 2009! :)

So, I just registered for fall classes this year with Bobby. I'm so excited! :)

9:30 Marriage and Family Relations
11:00 U.S. History to 1865
12:30 U.S. Government
Online Basic Nutrition

:) :) :)

I can't wait to get my textbooks! Woot!! :) :) :)

I've been waiting to go back to school since December and now I get to! :) :) Yay!!!

Bobby and I are planning to head up to Washington in early august. I don't know how long we will be able to be up there though... updates will be coming soon. :) It all depends if we fly or drive....

Love you all, and can't wait to see my family again soon.

Work Work Work

I'm in a mindnumbing routine and need to break out of it.

I've been going to work 7 days in a row now and need an effing day off! i'm going insane! I'm so sick of working and doing the exact same thing every day. :( I really need a new job--completely. I'm afraid though that I won't be making as much money as I do now. Perhaps I'll try Hobby Lobby. I hear they pay their cashiers $12.50 an hour. And then I'll work up the chain again :) ...if i actually like the company. I just don't know what I want to do for a job. Maybe blockbuster. Working there seems incredibly easy. I just need a job that allows me to earn between 550-700 per paycheck. Perhaps I'll be a waitress?? Or...go with a marketing company? I just don't know. :( hmmmm.... I should really start researching it.

I wouldn't mind being someone's personal assistant or secretary either--I think I'd enjoy that kind of job. I've already researched librarians....noone's hiring right now. Stupid cities..:P

I'll find something eventually...maybe.



Anyhow, Tiffany is flying down tomorrow and is staying in texas for a whole week! :D holy crabobles! I just dont' know when we will be able to hang out, but we will find one day at least to.

Bobby's 19th birthday is on friday. I've gotten him a few gifts, but I need to stop by the store and get a few more things. :-)

I haven't heard from nikki lately, I wonder how her new job is!

Well, i have to get ready for another 9 hour shift at work. HOORAY! -_-

coming home!

I'm really excited to fly up to washington again. Although it is for a sad occasion, it's also about celebrating who grandma pat was. And i'm so happy I will be able to be there for her memorial service.

I can't wait to see the sisters again! I haven't seen tiffany for over a year, and haven't seen charmie since her wedding. I really want to get to know kjerstie. It makes me sad that i feel so awkward still around her because i still don't know much of anything about her. :'( I really need some bonding time with her.

This will be the first time since Bobby and I have been together, that we won't be able to see eachother for a day. I know, that sounds crazy, but Bobby and I have been attached to the hip almost since we've been together. :P


Well..i must get packing...I have to be at work in 2 hours. blah....

Patriarchal blessing

I was just reading my patriarchal blessing a minute ago. I was writing in my journal and found it in the back and i read it.

Some things hit me like a rock on the head about a few things. Reading it now, it's so obvious that it tells that i'm being led away from the church. and that in a future life i will have to take covenants that will lead back to "his" presence. It was also talking about how being a mother will be the greatest responsibility that i will have. and bobby and i have been talking about kids for awhile and what we would do, how many we would have, names and everything--and it's becoming more realistic.

it also talks about how i will have times of discouragement and disappointment and difficult situations. when i read that, i had a sudden feeling of dread and immediately thought about bobby...i don't want to lose him, and don't know what i would do if he died.

I don't really believe in the church...some of the doctrine perhaps...in a sense...but i don't believe in mormon culture or wide belief. i don't really know what i believe. But this stuff that i just read inspired me to write this....

College!!!

I am so FREAKING EXCITED for college!! :) :) :) It's going to be awesome!! :D

I just put in my app for NCTC and now I need to send in my transcript and test scores. And thanks to my SAT scores I'm exempt from taking the THEA Test! score!! :P

What's really cool is that tuition is around 900 bucks (depending on the amount of classes I take.) 900 is for about 12 credit hours(which is full-student minimum requirement). I can't wait!!!! :]

I'm thinking of getting my Associate of Science with Discipline in Chemistry. (This may change....)

I can't wait to start my math classes and computer classes, and music classes, and literature and AHHH i'm getting way ahead of myself!!


I started looking at the FAFSA app. and trying to figure out whether I should use Mom and Bill's taxes...or Dad's. ...i'm thinking if i use dad's though, i'll probably end up getting more $$ in grants from the gov. :P I'm also starting to look at scholarships for the fall. and so hopefully, i won't have to pay for any of my college. hehehe. i dunno though, we'll see how things look later on.

I'm also looking up piano teachers in the lewisville, highland village, and flower mound area to see if i can get some one on one lessons to help me build my skills. I really want to pursue music, but I don't know if I can dedicate myself enough to major in music...hmm...i dunno. I'll probably stick w/ chemistry. If i do decide on a teacher for some private lessons, i'll have to use dad's piano to practice on...which i don't think he'll mind.

I asked Dad to go to lunch w/ me at the Cheesecake Factory and we patched up a bit...it's awkward though.

Well...i must get ready for work. GAH! i'm excited!!

clean clean clean

i've been cleaning all day! yay!!! :)

money is starting to get tight. i had to pay an unexpected 285 bucks for reassigning my title yesterday...and with my doctors appt being next week and before the next pay day...i'm having to take everything else out of my savings to pay for this visit b/c for some stupid reason it has to be paid in full..upfront. (what the crap! why don't they go through insurance agencies???) I dunno..i'm gonna call them and ask them about it. but, with the med. bills and finally finishing payments off my car, i'm left with almost nothing. i still think i can save up for college this fall..but it will be much harder...:( i hate money...again.

Another one.

death tends to hit more than once quickly.

It was really hard to deal with bobby's grandfathers death--i was crying pretty bad, even though i had never met the guy--i got to learn about him from his wife Peggy and from bobby's mother. He was such a vivacious guy who lived his life to the fullest and it's so unfair that he had to leave this earth prematurely due to cancer. He died at the age of 70. This was the first full funeral i'd been to before and when we first went through the doors to view his grandpa all of the women were weeping without end. Bobby had to step away to recollect himself and i gave him a huge hug...while hearing this and hugging him as he tried to fight back the tears--i felt surrounded by death and that there was a huge weight on me. Having that sudden feeling i started to cry silently and didn't let anyone see it. It was such an emotional time. there were several services over those three days. three viewings. and a service from the Moose Fraternity that his Grandfather was in for decades. Then there was a funeral procession. Bobby and I were in the fourth car behind the funeral car. We stopped at the Virginia Veteran Cemetary. There was a military service for Grandpa Billy. Bobby was a palmsbearer (or something like that..) and he was so respectful and dutiful. After the end of that service, they laid him in the earth to rest.

I felt so much closer to Bobby and his family during this time. I'm really glad i was able to be with Bobby during this hard time for him.


And now... Grandma Pat's having a hard time. I'm trying to find out what's the update on her wellbeing. If she passes, that'll be another that death takes... It's going to be hard...but i want to be there to support Mom and to help with arrangements.